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| I wish I was a writer... |
[22 Aug 2009|11:35pm] |
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I would really love to be updating this daily... but the fact is... I am just not a writer. Come to think of it, I am not a reader either.. maybe there is a pattern here.
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| ENGAGED!! |
[02 Dec 2008|05:23pm] |
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It has been three years as of November 20th that Anthony and I have been together... and honestly it seems as though it was just yesterday that we went out on our first date. By the year mark I think that we both knew that we were right for each other, so it really wasn't a huge surprise when he asked me. (Although I was trilled!) Sunday night I was getting ready for bed after a wonderful night we got to spend with one another (which was rare since here lately it seems as though all he does is work). When I got into bed he sat down beside me. He told me that he couldn't imagine his life without me and then he asked me to marry him. After some crying Of course I said YES! So it is official! WE ARE ENGAGED!!
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| Apartment update... and more |
[27 Jul 2008|09:11pm] |
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EVERYTHING FIT!!! PRAISE THE LORD!! I am so excited! It is actually starting to look and feel like mine. And best of all. I am paying for it by myself! I am not getting any help. (Not that I don't appreciate the help when I need it.) It just finally feels like I did it. I can support myself with no outside help. Feels great! Its going to be crazy, but I have faith. Anthony is suppose to be here in 2-3 months. I miss him like crazy, but I have to say... it kind of feels good to be able not to have to rely on anyone else. Once everything is hung and put away I will post pictures. I know you all are dying, but you'll have to wait. :D HAHA
I start my job tomorrow. Wish me luck! I got it like almost two months ago, but they didnt need me to start until the 28th. I am kind of nervous. I hope that everything goes well and they don't hate me... It is probably just all in my head... right??
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| frustrated... |
[22 Jul 2008|08:08pm] |
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I went from having nothing to do to being freaking busy, and when the mover guy is being a GIANT DICK it doesn't help the situation. So in the next week, I am going to be swamped. I have like a million people to call just to make sure that everything goes according to plan. I move into my apartment on the 26th and turn around and start a full time job on the 28th. Although I am SUPER EXCITED, I am also extraordinarily nervous. Can I ask a favor of everyone who reads this? (Even if you don't know me)If you pray, please pray for me. Please pray that everything goes alright in the next 7 days and everything fits up the stair and in the apartment. I really appreciate it. THANK YOU!!
P.S. I will post pictures if everything goes right :)
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| I GOT A JOB!! |
[26 Jun 2008|07:33pm] |
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I am super excited. I got a job and I move into my apartment on July 26th!! Woot Woot!
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| Something has happened to me the past few days... |
[31 Mar 2008|11:11am] |
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"What might have been"-- Little Texas |
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I have been so consumed with my worries and troubles around me that I have made a big mistake. A great friend gave me this book for my birthday, "New Day, New You". Its a Joyce Meyer devotional. I hadn't been reading my bible or this book. Today I decided to pick it up and see what it was all about. When I did I found that I have walked away from what was most important. Today's entry was about Entering the Rest of Gad. I discovered that for the past little while now I have not had peace. I have had a lot on my mind and I used that as an excuse to back slide in my faith. One thing that Joyce said that really hit me was "If your thoughts have become negative and full of doubt, it is because you have stopped hearing, receiving, and obeying God's Word". And its true. I have done and said things in the past weeks to months that I wouldn't have done or said had I been living right and listening when the Lord tries to tell me things. I am heart broken. I am very sorry to friends and family that have been at the end of my comments or actions these past few weeks. You know who you are, I am very sorry!!
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| On my mind... |
[12 Feb 2008|10:22pm] |
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Job 6:25
"How painful are honest words! But what do you arguments prove?"
Matthew 7:1
"Do not judge, or you to will be judged"
Matthew 7:12
"So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets."
I think that for a person who tries so hard to seek compassion, sympathy and companionship from others, you miss the signs of someone reaching out to you. However, I pray mostly that you will start to see a persons intentions instead of belligerence.
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[14 Jan 2008|01:14pm] |
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‘Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond imagination. It is our light more than our darkness which scares us. We ask ourselves – who are we to be brilliant, beautiful, talented, and fabulous. But honestly, who are you to not be so?
You are a child of God, small games do not work in this world. For those around us to feel peace, it is not example to make ourselves small. We were born to express the glory of god that lives in us. It is not in some of us, it is in all of us. While we allow our light to shine, we unconsciously give permission for others to do the same. When we liberate ourselves from our own fears, simply our presence may liberate others.’
- Marianne Williamson in Return to Love: Reflections on a Course in Miracles
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| letting go... |
[09 Nov 2007|05:40pm] |
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Things have changed... I think we all know that. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I made some mistakes and if I did to any of you, I am sorry. Even if at the time I didnt think I was wrong... it doesn't matter. I should have apologized anyway. God has a plan for everything though. So I guess its part of his plan. Although Im not sure why he had this in mind for me. Everyone goes through trials, maybe we are all growing and building. I have to see it as a good thing thought. Other wise I will be a mess. I want to look at it like we had good otherwise I cant rest easy. I sure will miss the good times though.
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[04 Oct 2007|04:32pm] |
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"Kill or be Killed, and one day we will get the best of them!"
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[04 Oct 2007|10:06am] |
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Hopefully soon, My new tattoo! :]
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| Elbert Hubbard |
[23 Sep 2007|01:05pm] |
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Never Explain — your Friends do not need it and your Enemies will not believe
you anyway.
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| Designer Vaginas |
[13 Sep 2007|08:08pm] |
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I'm taking this class that is Women in American Culture and we were given a reading assignment and the title of the piece is Designer Vaginas. Basically, women are going to plastic surgeons and "trimming away labial tissue and sometimes injecting fat from another part of the body into the labia that have been deemed excessively droopy." They are calling it "vaginal rejuvenation". Now... I think this is absurd. What do you think?
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| PLEASE! |
[04 Sep 2007|12:21am] |
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I hate it when I feel like I am being lied too! Don't fucking lie to me!! If you have something to say to me, fucking say it to my face. Come on guys, this is fucking high school shit!! Has anyone every heard of "treat people the way you would want to be treated"? It's pretty simple! If you don't want to be lied to, don't lie! If you don't want to be talked about behind your back, don't gossip. Its not that hard! I don't understand what is the fucking problem??
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[20 Aug 2007|11:01am] |
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first day back... wish me luck...
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[06 Aug 2007|06:05pm] |
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The last post had nothing to do with any of the friends... I thought I disabled the comments, but I disabled the screening by accident sorry!
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[05 Aug 2007|09:52pm] |
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I sick and tired of trying to impress you people! Im done! fuck all of you!
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| I want.... |
[03 Aug 2007|12:13am] |
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I want to go out!! I want to drink and dance and party and have a good time. I want to let loose, be me and not care what the guys are thinking because I dont have too. I want to go to a club! I want to get hit on, and turn the guy down. I want to go have a good time. Problem... I need to meet a friend that will want all the same things I want!
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[31 Jul 2007|10:12pm] |
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I updated my layout all by myself... I tryed to change the X's but I dont know how. Oh well I still think that its cute!
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